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January 2010 Archives
So if you haven't already heard via Facebook I am moving back to Townsville.
I've wanted this for a long time and now I am actually leaving Mount Isa and moving back to Townsville.
So then, why do I feel completely miserable?
Might have something to do with leaving my family, leaving the kindy and school. Most of all I do believe it's leaving Luke.
Months ago I would have never thought I would find myself in this dilemma. I would never have thought I would have to wake up one morning and he wasn't there sleeping next to me. I never thought that he would never be at arms reach anymore. That we would be together for long time.
Technically we haven't broken up. Technically we're still even engaged.
Luke wants me to pursue my dreams and get my shit together (start studying, get that damn degree) and he himself do the same. That unfortunately involves us being apart temporarily, which is fine but I'm not at that point of being okay with him being so far away from me. I wish I was. I wish I didn't feel so weak and pathetic. I wish I could do this and not have to depend on constant reassurance.
I know this is important for me. I know this is for the best. I'm just sad.